It’s hard to believe Aidan is already seven days old. A week ago, I was holding him for the first time. Today, I can’t imagine life without him. I remember being amazed when Jack was born how quickly I fell in love with him. I’m happy to say the same holds true the second time around. I love those little boys with a love I never knew was possible.
In a couple of days, Jack will turn two. Until then, Laura and I get the joy of saying we have two boys under the age of two. As a total aside, it’s pretty hilarious to see the looks of sympathy, pity and confusion we get from people when we say that!
Jack and Aidan both need their diapers changed constantly. Neither one can feed themselves. They don’t have a clue what’s in their best interest. Crying is common. Sleep is frequent for them but rare for us.
They are also incredibly joyful, trusting, loving and happy little people. Jack can’t get enough of Aidan, constantly wants to know where he is and will go ballistic if you try putting him to bed before he can kiss Aidan goodnight. Aidan is a little trooper who has already made a huge mark on our family.
They are totally helpless but totally trusting. Inadequate but have everything provided for them. Selfish but loved. Sacred but safe.
And Jesus tells you and me we must see ourselves the same way to enter the kingdom of God, “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.“(Mt. 18:3) That runs deeply against our human nature. It’s wired into us to grow up, be good at something and earn your place in life. Jesus invites us into something different – the wonder of grace.
The gospel is the story of a perfect God becoming sin on the cross so that sinners could become perfected in God’s sight through faith in Jesus. God doesn’t expect us to get our lives together, impress Him and earn His favor. He’s totally certain we could never do that on our own. He’s comfortable with our helplessness, our inadequacy, our fears and our selfishness. He offers us life not because we’ve earned it but because He’s earned it on our behalf.
So many of us strive to act like we have it all together. Maybe we’re trying to impress others and maybe we’re trying to impress God. Either way, it’s exhausting. And unnecessary.
I don’t hate Jack and Aidan because they need Laura and I. If anything, it makes me love them more. I love being strong for them, teaching them, lifting them and protecting them.
But I also love knowing I have a Father in heaven who is strong when I am weak (2 Cor. 12:9), who fights for me (Ex. 14:14) and who will provide for me (Mt. 6:26). Honestly, I don’t think I could be strong for my boys if God wasn’t strong for me. That’s our privilege as followers of Christ – to “approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.“(Heb. 4:16)
It’s okay to come to God as a helpless child. In fact, it’s the only way to ever find Him.